Thursday, September 1, 2011

Today I Thought About Temptation

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I want things I can't have.

I was at the gym today and I started thinking... about temptations. I had just started my third round on the elliptical and I was growing weaker in the knees with each passing minute. My legs were quivering; shortening my breath with each stride back and forth. How adamantly I tried to abandon my thoughts. Tried to reason with myself that I knew I shouldn't think such things. I tried dismissing them casually. Similar to the way one might attempt to discard a wrapper on the floor without being seen.

Then my thoughts shifted gears. In just three weeks, I'm almost ten pounds lighter. I've dutifully followed my meal plan, and stayed committed to my workout routines. I've eaten enough chicken and egg whites to start growing feathers, and I think not feeling sore would now be more uncomfortable than feeling sore, being that my muscles are constantly aching.

Sacrifice. That's the trade off for temptation. The decision to sacrifice clandestine encounters for commitments made. Take food as an example. I love junk food- especially pizza. But I've made a commitment, to the gym that is. I've put time and effort into it. So I ignore my craving for what I want, because it's the right thing to do. And while I always leave the gym feeling accomplished, I'd be lying if I said I felt the illicit tingle of passion. The passion I feel, which resonates so deeply within me, when I succumb to my temptations.

So what does that mean? Can passion and commitment really go hand in hand? And if I have to choose between the two, can I ever be satisfied?

And what is it about temptation? The ways that it's all at once sinister, and smooth, and seductive. Maybe the allure of giving in is just temporary. Even if it is, how do you differentiate between lusting after the moment, and really missing out on something?

I could really go for some of that pizza right now, even if it's just a bite...


Sunday, August 21, 2011

The Philosophy of God: Is God Real or Not?

After reading this article, I was encouraged to rebut the interesting, yet unfounded speculation of the author. While the scientific and evolutionary explanations presented are both plausible and justifiable, they lack the explanation for the origin of the very first being, of all beings in all levels of the universe, and how they got there. The first chapter of the book is missing, and therefore, in my mind, renders their argument unsound. I started writing the first part of my philosophical argument for God when I was living in California. I won’t discuss my own spiritual beliefs- assuming I have any to discuss with you is your prerogative. What you are about to read is my philosophical exercise for the topic of God, and nothing more. 
To explain, or even try to understand God, three separate arguments must be considered. There is the argument for the existence of God (that is to examine the proof for God’s existence), another for the definition of God, and the last for the nature of God. To argue for the existence of God by his definition may presuppose the definition of God. For example, to say God is the creator of everything, therefore he exists, presupposes that God God is the creator, but does not prove as much. The same might occur by trying to understand God by arguing the nature of God. For example: 
St. Anselm gives us the definition of God as, “The being than which nothing greater can be conceived.” He claims that if the being than which nothing greater can be conceived, can be conceived to exist in thought, than it must exist in reality. The conclusion of this argument is not invalid, but the premise is presupposed. The truth of the syllogism does not prove that God is in fact the being than which nothing greater can be conceived. It proves only that if one accepts the premise to be the true definition of God, then it necessarily follows that the conclusion is also true. 
To sum up the task at hand in simpler terms, how would one be best advised to prove whether or not something was real gold? They would first have to understand the chemical composition of gold (or what gold is) and then test against it the object in question. Clearly, defining God must be the first argument considered.
If then, defining God must be the first argument for proving his existence, as it has been clearly demonstrated that it must be, the definition cannot consist of the nature of God. The nature of God can only be understood after we have defined what God is. For the following reasons, it follows necessarily that God is that which is infinite
If the objective of this philosophy is to determine the realness and existence of God, the nature of things that are real must be the first step approached in defining God. If God exists, God must be real. In reverse, the same applies; if God is real, than God must exist. We know this to be true because only real things exist. If the state of existence is to be, then clearly something that is not, cannot be. Only that which is real exists, and that which exists can exist only as that which it is. The state of water will serve as an analogy for this concept:
Take water in the form of an ice cube. The water is frozen. If heat is applied, the water will melt, taking it from frozen to liquid form. The minute the water melts, it ceases to be frozen; a thing cannot be both liquid and frozen at the same time. The same applies to the nature of being. Being is a singular state. The moment a thing becomes something else, it ceases to be that which it was
The astute reader will have immediately recognized the discrepancy in this analogy. The water may in fact cease to be frozen as soon as it is melted (thus preventing it from being two things at once), yet it is still water when it is both frozen and liquid. Hence the distinction between a state of being, and the essence of what a thing is. It is important to realize that in order to define what God is, we must seek the essence of God (what God actually is), and not the state of being in which God is in.
So what do we know about God? Only that if God exists, God must be real. However, we also know that if God is real in essence, than God has always been real, and therefore, always existed. The principle of negation will help to clarify this concept:
Take the example of a tree. A tree is a plant; but only in so much as it is a form of life existing in a tree. Note the distinction of the trees essence (a form of life), from its state of being (existing as a living plant). While the tree is alive, it is a form of life that exists as a living tree- having a growth cycle, a life span, and a time of death. Once it dies, it ceases to exist as a tree, but decomposes, becomes soil, and allows for new life to form. The soil created from the dead tree is still a form of life- without it, new trees would not grow. Because the soil is not by scientific terms alive, does not mean it is not a form of life. If new life can come from the soil, like a tree, than it must be a form of life. For clearly only life yields life, as things are not born out of thin air. Without the cycle of decomposition, new life would not emerge. So, while the state of being a tree may change, a tree is always a form of life. And when its “offspring” dies, it will decompose, having in some way the life of its origin tree in it, and start the cycle over again. Life gives unto life. 
That which is real must exist (because only real things exist), and must always exist (because only things that are not real do not exist). This is the principle of negation. The essence of what a thing is, is only understandable by the negation of what a thing is not.  If things that do not exist are not real, then things that exist can never, in the essence of what a thing is, not be real. If the tree ceased to be a form of life, then the tree (as a form of life) would not be real. It would be the negation of a form of life. A tree would be redefined as “that which is not a form of life”, and then more strictly defined when compared to the list of other things that are negations of life forms.
We have now reached quite a milestone in solidifying what God is! We can now prove that if God in essence is real, God must exist- and therefore always have existed. 
The principle of negation then proves the principle of infinity. Infinity is the contrary, or negation, of all that is finite. Things can be measured as finite only by their relativity to the infinite. Infinity must exist, because that which is finite exists. This is self-evident. For even if the claim, “Everything that exists is finite.” is made, then all that is finite is so, infinitely. This is simply because that which is, cannot be two things at once. Being again, is a singular state. Therefore, infinity itself must always be infinite. For if it is infinite in essence, it cannot ever be finite.
The philosophy of time must be briefly examined to prove the former. As some argue that time is a man made concept, with which I emphatically agree that it is, yet either way the principle of infinity remains sound. If time exists as a quantifiable thing, then it must have a beginning and an end. In simpler terms, it must have two solid points of reference (smallest to largest) against which time can be measured. Without as much, time is limitless- therefore not real, and incapable of being measured. If time exists with a beginning and an end, it is finite. If it is finite, that which is infinite must exist, as proven by the above principle. If time does not exist, and there is only change, then change exists limitlessly, or infinitely. Again, proving the principle of infinity by negation. 
God either exists, or does not exist. Or to be put more plainly, God is either real, or not real, in essence, (a thing cannot be both real and unreal). If a thing exists, it must be real. If a thing is real, it must be true because the nature of falsity is the negation of truth; that which is not. If God is real, the definition of the essence of God (not the stage of being in which God is in), must always be real, so it must be that God is that which is infinite. For if God is not that which is infinite, then God would have to fall into the realm of that which is finite. If God is finite, then God must have at some point ceased to exist, or not have always existed, which is a contradiction by the principles of both real things, and negation. Therefore, if God exists, God- is infinity.
There is more on the nature of God, and the proof for God’s existence, but my brain is pretty fried right now...

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Today- I thought about change.

I could feel the blood sprinting up and down the inside of my veins. I felt like I was forcing energy out of myself that I didn't have; kind of like trying to spray the last few drops out of an empty perfume bottle. With every thrust, I felt my legs squeeze tighter together- grow weaker together. Beads of sweat marched across my skin as my breathing got heavier, and heavier, until I was almost there. When I reached Gian, he told me, “Now go run a lap.”
Needless to say, I had a rude awakening at the gym today. It just so happens that I’m more out of shape than I thought. The rude awakening came after the first 5 minutes of my work out, when I realized just how hard I was going to have to work to get back in shape. I had to make a change, several in fact. Being who I am, my neurotic thought patterns got me thinking about change...
By its very nature, change is somewhat of a paradox. It is constant, but only in the way that it's constantly something different. Changing lipsticks, changing water filters, changing genders. Always change, but never the same as before. And it’s never ending. Change is less like replacing a popped tire, and more like repairing an old football injury; it's a solution, but it doesn’t permanently fix anything. Another change inevitably follows in its place.
Inevitable. That’s what change is. It’s not good, or bad, or even important, it simply is. Change is there even when I am unsuspecting, like breathing. I couldn’t help it even if I wanted to; couldn’t make it stop. However involuntary it may be, I am enslaved. So long as I breathe, change will inevitably find its way back to me. 


I was panting like a backyard dog when Gian gave me a workout tip. “Breathe in through your nose and out through your mouth. It helps you control your breathing.” The breathing may be inevitable. But the control; now that's a power I can cultivate.
Survived my first real session at the gym. I wonder what we’re working on tomorrow.

Friday, July 22, 2011

Real Talk: My New Glasses & The Truth About Hipsters

Day before yesterday, I bought these glasses; they're fake. I was shopping with my friend Ashley at Aventura Mall. "They're so hipster", she responded when I asked her if she liked them. For a split second, I debated as to whether or not I should get them.



When it comes to what I like, there are only two groups I identify with: things that I think are dope, and things that I think are not. I've never been one to care if something is in, or trendy, or from a particular style group. Ashley being the wonderful individual that she is, quickly remarked, "Get 'em, they look cute. Who cares if they're hipster!" So I did. Fake or not, my glasses allowed me to see certain things a little more clearly...

I am so sick of those people who knock everything that becomes mainstream and popular, just because it's mainstream or popular. I don't mean people who dislike certain things for reasons of personal taste or style. For example, I like a lot of things that are popular, but I dislike a lot of things that are popular; like Rihanna. I'm talking about people who are desperate to be different rather than those who strive to be unique. Choosing not to wear something, or not to like something for that matter, just because it's hipster, is no different than liking something just because it is hipster. Being anti-popular does not make you an individual by default. Instead of identifying with one group, you shove yourself into another group, along with all the other self-proclaimed affluents. You're not above the crowd, you're predictable. People who are easily seduced by what everyone else is doing are just as feeble minded as those who are immediately turned off by something, just because it's popular. You're not marching to your own drummer, you're just another played out tune. The other side of the same coin. Despite what you think, you are just like everyone else- everyone else just happens to be everyone you know, that's why you feel so separated from the people at which you scoff.

There are people I know who make everything their own. They don't follow anything popular, and every out-of-the-box notion they live by was arrived at by some means of self-discovery; and they are amazing people because of it. I didn't write this to promote popular culture, I wrote it to expose just how popular the anti-popular movement is- your a hipster in sheep's clothing. Be your own person.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Style Buzz: Art as Fashion=Fashion as Art

I've been sprucing up my Tumblr & Twitter today; with my career choice, I'm pretty much a slave to social media. My unyielding compulsion to constantly share what's on my mind might have had something to do with it too.

I was browsing knit art today, my latest art medium obsession, and indulging in a knit fashion fantasy. My soon to be sister-in-law is totally stylish, and put me on to Krelwear- the dopest of the dope in knit art...

I need to shed a few more L-bees before I can rock Krel, but I'm working on it. In the mean time I will have to settle for oogling some of this stuff:


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My darling model friend- Miss Ashley Garner
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You should definitely check out Ashley's blog. And while you're at it, check out Krelwear, the amazing knit fashion you see above. Ciao, knit me something :)

D. Mia

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Bedroom Talk: Home Libraries

Even the greatest successes begin as thoughts; as immaterial things. I like to think of my room as a sanctuary. A sanctuary/ bat cave/ fashion studio/ headquarters for world domination. Granted, sometimes it looks more like a train wreck than a luxury ride, but I think it is crucial to transform one's living place into an enclave of wonder. Everyone should have a nook to which they can escape, some place that is their own. It may not seem like it, but pursuing your ambition's can start by taking charge of your living space. Just like your clothing, music choice, and hobby interests, your home is a place where you can materialize your individuality. Take the ideas for greatness that bounce around in your head, and force them into your living space. Go from thinking them regularly, to seeing them everyday. Doing this takes your goals from daydreams, to something tangible. Reality is perception, so spice up your view...

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My boyfriend and I LOVE home libraries. We don't have a house yet, so I have no where to build one, but I am going to start creating a mini one in my room. I long for the day when I can strut over to my chaise, silk-clad with my cup of tea, and perch by the afternoon light, to read in my library. My newest reading obsessions are comic books. Fiction novels and biographies are my favorite genres, but I really want to get into comics. All too often I've heard people say that America has no culture. Comic books are an American Institution, which have been emulated in countless countries across the globe since the emergence of Superman. Besides- superpowers are wicked cool.

Ask yourself who you are. What do you like? What makes you tick? If you come up short, try decorating your room. You'd be amazed at the extension of yourself that starts to unfold... Here are a few more amazing home libraries:

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ex's & oh's

D. Mia

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

AGBF Fall '11 Preview

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